This week I have mostly been reading books by Matt Haig, author of The Humans. In Reasons to Stay Alive, he discusses his ongoing fight with depression, one which he is winning. One of his chapters is called- Things that make it better. Another is called- Things that make it worse. He is of course talking about things that make his depression worse/better rather than infinite sadness but if the shoe fits…….Here is my list.
Things that make it better:
Playing cards with Flynn.
Waking up next to my sleeping daughter and getting a good waft of her cotton breath.
Listening to the kids at break time in the school opposite our back yard.
Talking to my friends. I have a special 5 who can talk me down from any cliff. Two of these are often known to say: “We need to come up with a plan.”
A good mug of strong builders.
Becoming a godmother.
Fresh crisp sheets.
Looking at David Gandy’s face in M&S
Any room with a fire.
Swinging in the hammock in my garden late at night with a good book.
Being on my own.
Being in the right company.
Things that make it worse:
Being in the wrong company.
Lack of sleep.
People putting pressure on me to either remember things, show up or to be on-time.
A messy house.
Too many emails in my inbox.
Worrying that I have eaten too much cheese.
My to-do list.
Being told Maya Angelou is dead.
The post office.
Taking out the bins.
A low bank balance at the end of the month. (I’m only Human)
Love Liberates- Maya Angelou. (Dead American Poet)
For Kathy Collis. ( and Matt Haig of course)